[Red_Gold]

Young people delight in non-conformity. I must have grown up a lot, coz i found myself delighting in conformity. I am happy to wear uniform, do my 9 to 5 and be treated somewhat patronizingly by the 'nanny-state' system. I have no desire to fight for any kind of change, not because I don't want it, but because I want to embody that change myself first and then lead by example if I can. I don't want to oppose anything. I've learned that it is smarter to work with the system from inside in order to bring the desired change than to fight it from outside. I either grew up or got old. I don't really care which one is it. I does seem to me that people who remain constant outsiders, outcasts living on the fringe, forever fighting the establishment and its rules have never really found their place in the system. Maybe they never grew up and not in the positive sense of the word. In fact, does this notion of 'never growing up' really has a positive side? We are at the core, just another species on this planet. And every member of every species goes through the same thing: birth, childhood, adolescence, adulthood, mating, reproduction of its genes through offspring, raising the offspring to fend for themselves successfully and then decline and death. It would be weird for my 4 year old huge male cat, who fathered 4 litters of kittens and fought off numerous rivals to suddenly start behaving like a kitten. The sight of it would be sad and pathetic. So why the hell society cherishes this idea of never growing up??? Its against the nature of things, isn't it?

I've definitely done a lot of growing in the last 6 years. Some aspects of it were quite painful too. But I am better off now. I still got ways to go tho. Somehow, I manage to put myself in the situations that force me to grow. Its a good thing. Just bit hard on my already bruise ego, lol.